i think you want the whole world to know that you didnt get to Poly,
then people will sympatise with you,
then people will say "you can make it one lah", those stuffs to you.

oh come on!
i FCUKING didnt get in to Poly also and i have to face more than what you have to face ok.
i have to face my mum who expects a lot from me.
i have to face my sister who always looks down me and "she's always the best".
so, who have to face the stress more?

i dont know why but i still feel sad over the results.
very sad.
really sad.
maybe its my own FCUKING fault that i get this kind of results.
but when i receive the results does any of my family members comforted me?
maybe im being too sensitive over this but wth! you get all the attention from them.

for now, all i can be thankful of is that i have a bf who was there beside me
when i need someone to cry on,
when i need someone to just keep quiet and feel what im feeling,
when i need someone to calm me down.

i know....
THEY will say that i dont have any Certificate of Merit but i can get Cerficate of Marriage.
SHE will say that i can never make it to Poly ah.
SHE will say that i am confident that i can get through to TP after i sent in the appeal letter and thats the reason why i dont want to appeal to other Polys'.

YOU think i didnt try my best in my last term of ITE.
YOU think i didnt study at all and only played around just because i have a bf?
YOU think that SHE'S better than me in everything.
no, ALL the people around HER thinks that she can do better than me.
why?
because she dont have a bf and i have thats why i cant succeed in my education life.





WHAT THE FUCK SEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok.
i dont know whether i should be pissed or whether i should be crying my lungs out again.